Expectations

Having never been through this process before it's really hard to set the right expectations. The process up until the other day had been going perfect. Almost too perfect. When we first started this journey I don't think we thought we would be matched so quickly. To give you a timeline I reached out to the surrogacy agency we are using on October 19, we received two gestational carrier profiles on December 16, we had our first phone call with the potential carrier and her husband on the 29th, we met them on January 7 and on January 11 we were officially matched. So in less than three months we contacted the agency and were matched with the woman who would be carrying our baby (mind you I finished radiation on December 27, so it's been a crazy couple months).

So this brings me to our next step. Our paperwork needed to be sent to our fertility clinic to start the process with them. So the clinic called and said they scheduled our consult for February 10, well February 10 doesn't work for us and apparently the next available time isn't until March 10. A month later?! Seriously?! And apparently NOTHING else can happen until this consult takes place. And come to find out we could have done this consult back in October when we started this process however I was never told that either of the two times I called the office. What the clinic told me each time I called was they will start their process when they receive the paperwork from the agency. Yeah not the case. AND to find out this consult is to determine if we medically qualify to use a surrogate? Now I know I qualify, my oncologist will not support me getting pregnant, but what if there was a chance I didn't...we already gave money to the agency, mind you not a small amount. What would happen if our clinic didn't approve it? They wouldn't let us have a baby? Use OUR embryos? We'd be out that money? I'm just totally annoyed with the process today. I know I did my part. If there was anything I learned through my cancer diagnosis and treatment is that you have to be your own advocate, no one cares as much about you as you do. I know I made those phone calls and was told the wrong information and so now we are looking at possibly delivering our baby in 2018 instead of 2017. I know a couple months shouldn't matter and we need to be patient, but when you have been praying for this baby since 2014 and you've already been through so much, all you want is to be blessed as quickly as possible with this new life. Watch me while I practice patience.